Spring hath Sprung! and change is in the midst...

Us vs. Them has closed. Dark Luna successfully produced their first show!
Admittedly, despite the rocky process, personality conflicts and horrible space issues - the show was a bona fide success. Goes to show, that when you have solid material, solid actors (for the most part), it is difficult to screw it up. Many lessons were learned. The question will now be - will we all (Dark Luna) grow from them?

I have been going through the usual post-show blues. I miss the world of the play, particularly the relationships Kris had in that world that Wesley so beautifully created.

I find myself wondering,
"where do I go from here?"
"what next?"

This was a fantastic piece for me. Showed me off very well (physically and artistically). Despite that, it was challenging to get many industry people to attend. A common problem - Yes, as a new company in NYC, one needs to keep expectations realistic; I just feel like Sisyphus, these past years since coming out of grad school - constantly pushing that boulder up a hill to move my career forward. I have been doing it, yes. I won't ignore that fact. My agents came, which is good, and rumor has it they were very pleased with what they saw....so, we'll see. I am looking to meet with them soon and have a conversation about the future. So, I must be objective about my progress - a constant challenge for me.

In addition, I find myself uncertain about my future with this group, Dark Luna. No sour grapes, mind you; nor is there any bitterness - at all. It's just, after all this, all the obstacles we faced (some external and out of our control, many were internal and could've been avoided, I believe) I cannot help but wonder if I am a right fit for this group? Might I be a disruptive force. While what I see and witness seems to be counter-intuitive to moving forward - maybe it's me? Maybe whatever issues that are present are because of me...? I cannot ignore that possibility.

It is because of that very possibility that I am choosing to make some life changes as well. I find myself to be more solitary these days than I prefer. So I am beginning to make an effort to seek new relationships in my life - a little internal "spring cleaning" if you will. Out with the old and dusty, in with the new. And it has to begin with me!

I am looking to begin to do more volunteering in the area (NYC/NJ), and I am adopting a dog!

Here she is: World, meet Sadie!

I have a sneaking suspicion that this little lady is gonna change my life.
Looking forward to it - I need it!

And, we're off and running!

We opened last week -
Us vs. Them, for the most part, is being well-received!

Click here for our first review

Not bad...

Now, our challenge is getting butt's in seats - hopefully the reviews will help.

Needless to say, putting up a show is a very difficult process-I've learned so much.
I do have some decisions to make however, when all is done.

Breakthroughs...?

I think I may have had a breakthrough with some of my students in my Acting class last week. While the specific student may be the last one to acknowledge the breakthrough,  it seemed evident that the rest of the class observed something new and remarkable. Acting truthfully, NOT performing.

That has been my challenge this semester in my Advanced Acting class. In addition, I have found that, when entering a new program and one is teaching an "advanced" acting class - one can be met  with a bit of resistance. Now, I admit, I am probably just as responsible for that - and a better teacher might be more skilled at side-stepping such behavior. Let's just say, I'm learning, and working on it...ALLRIGHT!...jeez, enough already!

I hope this forward motion for us continues for the rest of the semester...I hope I'm right in sensing a shift among them.

Us vs. Them is entering TECH. We open this Friday - shit! There is a fantastic show in there - it's all about retaining the work accomplished in rehearsal. Some of us seem to be challenged by sustaining the growth. I think this might be a negative factor of an amended rehearsal process. We could really use one more week. We also seem to be dealing with some resistance as well, different people have different processes...but I believe there comes a point where an actor has to put aside their own issues and have a greater grasp on the work as a whole...it's not just about them.


Again, there is a great show here and I believe we can get it....we're so close.
The beginning of a long week.....

A New Year

A new show

A new semester….

Once more in my life, I feel as if I’m in the midst of more change. It is difficult to explain, or perhaps dangerous. I find myself grateful for the opportunities that I have been given, while at the same time, I still yearn for more. I’m still not satisfied with my progress and I have to make some changes.

This new play should provide some possibility. It’s a good play, a really good play – and I have a great part. So for now, career-wise, Us vs. Them is my focus. The play has a great deal of potential, not only for the actors, but also, Wesley, the playwright. In fact, I believe this project will benefit both he and Michelle, the director, the most. Much deserved. It is Dark Luna's 1st full-length production.

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Could another move be in store for me? Literal, or otherwise, I feel a change is on its on its way…like I’m not sure if I belong here. Let me put it this way – when I got out of school, I was certain I was where I needed to be. Now, I’m not so sure.

This feeling is probably fueled by a recent implosion of a potential relationship: this latest effort plunged me deeply and quickly into the insane. Better I got out sooner than later, I guess. In addition, other relationships in my life have shifted. Make sense?

Regardless, it all kinda makes me sad, or perhaps scared.

Right now, I'm not feeling a lot of________(fill in the blank).

Trying to keep my hopes/expectations for the show in check…it is a good one.